I have to admit…I am the type of person that cannot leave my house without makeup on, my hair done, and a decent outfit on. And I am not saying this because I am vain and I “must” look pretty. I am saying this because there is a little insecurity in me that really cares what people think about me. I can’t walk out of the house without my hair done because not only do I have short hair but I have naturally curly hair. So without product and a straightener…I have a little bit of a “finger in the electric socket” look about me. And I can’t walk out of the house without make up on because there are times that I feel like I look like a boy without make up on. And I don’t like walking out of the house without a decent outfit on because I don’t want to look like a bum.
Well with this pregnancy…all of those rules and thoughts about myself went out the window. I don’t have enough energy to do my daily routine (work, take care of a toddler, go to the park, go to the gym, make dinner and go to bed)….let alone care about what I look like. I haven’t done my makeup in weeks. I haven’t straightened my hair in weeks. (I put a little product in it after the shower and slick it back to my head….hoping and praying that it dries that way) I have been wearing sun dresses every day. I feel like I am wearing a mumu….to cover my fatness….but really it’s for comfort.
At this point I have lost all concern with what people think about how I look. I don’t really care myself. Haha. It’s terrible. I feel bad for my family. We leave the house as a family and my husband looks handsome (like always – he is slightly metro) and my son always looks cute….and then mommy walks out looking like a hobo.
It doesn’t look like I am going to get any “you look so cute pregnant” comments this time.
Hopefully I grow out of the feeling like blah…..my self-esteem is gonna need a little boost sometime soon.